missing..

when it's time for me to slp, i dont feel like slping..when i realised it's time for me to go to bed, i feel like i've just lost another day..another day of my life has gone by without me doing anything productive at all..it's not about studies..it's not about money..i dunno what i'm feeling..this feeling of being left out somewhere..there's a hole in my heart..a hole which can never be sealed, reason being i dont know what's missing..

when it's time for me to wake up, i dont feellike waking up..when i realised it's time for me to wake up, i feel like i've just lost another night..another night of my life has gone by, without me resting enough to call it a night's sleep..it's not about how long i've slept..it's not about what bed i slept on..i dunno what i was dreaming of..this dream that gives me the feeling that i dont wanna wake up..i cant remember anything when i wake up..no matter how hard i try to remember, it just doesnt come back..

something is definitely missing in my life..but i can never figure out what it is..at this rate, i'll die before i find out..